Mentally you're not well. I know that.
If waking up with a panic attack so extreme that it leaves you unable to breathe is anything to go by.
I've researched all over to try and help, but it's medically proven that no one can explain why night terrors occur. In what state of mind does one have to be in to see a mate sleeping in the same room get violently stabbed to death? In what state of mind must one be in that it takes said mate over 20 minutes to wake you up from your panicking terror? What is happening inside your head.
They say not to try wake a person during a night terror episode, because they freak out. But also not to wake them because sometimes they can unknowingly attack their partner, or anyone who interferes with them.
Would they deploy you to Afghanistan if they knew about your ever-worsening nighttime panic attacks?
They would if they knew nothing about it.
You have only willingly told me.
And anyone else unfortunate to enough to wake up to your fearful hysteria.